I'm heading to Nanaimo today with Dan and his parents. My parents are throwing a Christmas party and I can't wait! This will even be the first time my parents and Dan's parents have met. We've been living together for 2 years, and they've never met!
I've found myself feeling homesick a lot lately. I miss my friends in Nanaimo like nobody's business, and I feel like I might be wasting my time and money in Victoria. If it wasn't for Dan, I would have packed up and left long ago, I think. I think there might be a small amount of pride involved as well. I'm determined to be able to make it on my own and not have to go crawling back to Nanaimo. I think I have to prove to myself that I'm capable of being an adult.
You know what? Being an adult sucks. I'm not any good at it at all. I miss high school. I'm probably like the only person who's ever said that, but I do. I had a lot of friends, and I enjoyed learning when it didn't cost me one red cent. True, some of the friends I have now, I wouldn't have if I was still in hig school, but I miss the comfort of knowing what I was doing in life. I was going to school, being social, and having fun. None of this paying bills, buying groceries, working at crappy jobs stuff.
I think I especially miss Musical Theatre and Choir (for all the stress it casued me, being one of the only ones there that was taking my part seriously). I can't do any of that now. I have to be up too early in the morning to be able to go to any kind of a rehearsal. All of my creative outlets are gone. And I'm really depressed.
I meant this to be a positive entry, so I'm going to try and look on the bright side of things. I have a job. I have a boyfriend who loves me. A lot. I have a decent place to live that's close to eveything important (work/grocery store/mall/school for Dan). I'm healthy (depending on your definition). I have many people who care about me, and will help me if I'm in a major jam. Most of my Christmas shopping is done. I'm going to a party tonight, and I'm going to have a lot of fun.
I have to go get ready before Dan's mom comes to get us. I'll update again soon.
2 comments:
I miss highschool too. Very much so.
I actually wish we could all go back to simpler days... Days when it was perfectly acceptable to run around in public naked. Days when our biggest accomplishment for the day was fingerpainting some stick figures without getting paint all over our faces. Days when we could play at the park without adults looking at us funny.
But it's always important we realize the good things in our life while we have them. Otherwise, we let them slip away and we could easily regret it later.
Love,
Robyn
Amen, sister!
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